Tuesday, May 27, 2008
She was really nice and took time explaining why it is important for me to gain weight at this point in time. I almost cried again though. Not sure if it was the hormones working again or if I just really like I have been a neglectful soon to be mommy by not eating so much to put on at least a pound each week.
Today's the first time for me to hear our baby's heartbeat through the doppler. most of my check ups I only see my baby's heartbeat thru the ultrasound monitor.
I was a bit anxious at first because it took sometime before the doctor found the heartbeat. And I was just really trying to hold my composure and not breakdown. I was almost telling myself to be ready when she tells me the baby's heart is not beating. You can just imagine how relieved I was she told me...there...your baby's heartbeat is strong.
I was prescribed a protein enriched vitamin for now so I could keep up with the weight requirement. I just hope everything turns out well.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Two weeks from now I will be halfway through the pregnancy...and out of the danger zone based on my research.
Frankly, it was only towards my 12th week that I started to feel really pregnant. I'm trying to stay happy and optimistic on this but I get scared that I still might not reach full term. I just hate to be disappointed. I know that no pregnancy is really safe until the baby's been delivered and declared safe from harm but I could not help but envy those expecting moms that breeze through their pregnancy smoothly.
But I'm thankful at the changes this whole experience had on me and Tibs. We've become a lot more closer to God. And I think that's taking our marriage a level higher. :)
Friday, May 16, 2008
I just hope our baby's okay. Check up is still a week away. I just get very panicky sometimes.
I wish I had somebody with me other than Tibs sometimes. I mean somebody who has experienced pregnancy already. That way, I rid off the paranoia.
Friday, May 2, 2008
I actually thought I was going to have a hard time giving up this long time addiction. But this growing little parasite inside of me really did amazing changes in my life. Right after confirming my pregnancy, my senses seemed to have blocked the memory of how delightful it is to drink an aromatic concoction of hazelnut, caramel and perfectly brewed espresso.
But today is a different story. My co-worker was complaining of how sleepy she is and decided to fetch herself a cup of coffee. The whiff got me instantly when she got back to her seat holding a steaming mug full of coffee. Then I started thinking, can I really do this? I mean, totally turn my back on the only thing that kept me going for almost half my lifetime? Six more months to go without my fuel??? Is it possible? I am starting to doubt if I do have enough will power to fight the urge. Haha.
But I guess I will. I most definitely will and can with motherhood hormones to back me up. I have started associating my indulgences to poison these days. It’s quite effective because it easily takes off the craving. That means dark chocolates, cheesecake slices, jelly beans, ice cream and all the sugary treats I used to get daily doses of are now off my ‘cant-live-without’ list. I just hope this strategy stays long enough so I won’t have to really mind my weight and my diet.